my life, as we know it.

so now that my future is completely non-existant i've decided i can do 1 of 3 things. they are as follows:
1 - drown myself in my pool
2 - become completely narassistic and create multiple webpages based on me or
3 - shelter myself from the world for the next 10 days and dedicate my time to create something. take a 30 day break, and continue in 40.

i'm leaning towards number 3. granted, numbers 1 and 2 both have their advantages. i'm sure i can combine all three. create a device to keep me submerged with wire that will spell out my name. it would be even better if my name was blinking. we'll call that plan 3-a.

or maybe i'll just wait for 40 days to do number 1. that way everything i've ever looked forward to would have happened and i'll be content with what my life amounted to. my family will be happy that i survived the trip and my friends will know i've accomplished everything i set out to. so really, it's a win win win situation.

you can't argue with that.

yeah.

this makes my insides feel fuzzy.